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What a day. A day filled with different emotions. Lethargic-anxious-relieved/not relieved?-mundane and helpless as always. Why? Why can't I just get the best outta life for like once? Why do I always get the worst outta it? I know my bestfriend's gonna say it depends on how you look at it but from any perspective I'd looked at it, life hasn't been treating me at its best. I always claims that I know but the actual fact is that I don't know anything at all, I never learn that's the problem. When I was at the hospital today, I actually pity some of the patients there while looking at myself, so pathetic. But its for the best I'd always told myself, if I'm not gonna do this nobody would actually be the "me-pitying-the-others". 2 years of my life and its slowly sucking out the best of me, I'm so sick of it. As much as I hate myself for ranting so much like a pussy, I really have no idea what else I could do. I'm always the kind of "looking-into-the-past" kinda person which I hated myself of it but sometimes its just inevitable. Grass of the other side is always greener right? Slowly, gradually losing faith. What have I became? Who will I become?

NTS: I really have to stop torturing myself through all these.

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Just had a great day out with my favorite group of people. Weather wasn't giving any bit of chance, although it's cloudy for the whole day but it's still very humid. As much as I thought i would be able to enjoy my day the amount of thoughts and "fear" had already covered up my mood and emotions. Why is it so hard just to let go of everything and just to enjoy the day? I really hated this feeling. People say you'll be able to get used to it and get over it after sometimes but clearly it hasn't been working well for me. This is not the type of life i want. I used to be so much more cheerful, so much more active but somehow army has took them away from me, even my bestfriend told me so too. 

Somehow i just won't be able to enjoy my days like how i used to. This sucks. Hope that the next meetup with them I'll be able to make up to my adsent-mind today. Tomorrow's gonna be yet another new start of the week and they've already warned us that this week's gonna be hell. One thing i hate is that they always love to give the worst heads-up but the best were never told to us. Seriously what's wrong with just being a little more positive? Tomorrow's "d-day" too i could say, how are things gonna turn out? I'm pray for the best... 

After longing for a change for the best to happen, things only just got worse. Be a commander they said, it'll be good for you they said. No, I didn't pull through this far just to get more shit. I'm lost along this journey once again and I no longer wanna go through anymore nonsense. How? I asked. How are things going to change with this kinda "suck-thumb" life? I need help from the above, I need guidance, I need a change. This is not what I want, this isn't fair to me. Maybe I wasn't even meant to be here at all. For pride? Yeah so much for it. Well done Gary.

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After 5 months of trainings and bondings together, its yet another parting from my bunkmates. This time, it felt a little more unwilling and sad I could say because the bond is so strong that you won't wanna break. Cheesy I know but it still felt really wasted.

The next phase of my army journey's gonna be the start of real challenge, no one will be there to be looking out for me anymore nor will there be anyone I'll be able to turn to in times of help. Hate to say this but I kinda miss those crazyass tough days we had together.

Anyways apart from the army shit, yes I've received my uni letters and they were yet another letdown. Just my luck of the year, nothing has been in my favor ever since the start of 2012. What is wrong?! It seemed to me that if I couldn't get into any local uni I'll be so lost I would left with no aims at all. I just need some hope from the above, just a lil heads up upon my future. Can't be life just as how movie plots are like? Sigh. Always can't get enough of the amount of time I have. So much things to be done.

Oh well, only thing I'm hoping for now is getting at least a better life in unit now. I know I can't depend on my luck now but I just hope, sincerely hoping for the better.

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Since i'm tied down with only my laptop and wireless now in school, i shall finally get the chance to blog. Lol.

Last Thursday, aka New Year's Eve, was such an eventful day. Sam came earlier to my place and we had a few rounds of L4D2 before the rest finally came at around 8 plus, when we're supposed to meet at 7. Lol. We split into 2 cars for the night, and way there was disastrous cuz i was leading the way and yet i kept exiting at the wrong exits. Finally got to Mount. Faber but parking lots were all taken. After 5 rounds around the peak, finally we got a lot and we finally got out of the car only around 10 plus.

Settled down at the Peak Point, had our dinner and card games. And finally down to countdown, it was before 12 according to my watch and somewhere started the fireworks just like that, and everybody just went "woahhhhhh.... wooooooo....", totally killed the countdown. Anyhow, it's not the countdown that matters though, it's the companionship. There were some whom i wished to celebrate the new year with too but they either can't make it or weren't around, hopefully their New Year went just fine too.

After the "fireworks" display, or rather "tree-blocking-fireworks" display which i call it, ended, heavy traffic jam all the way down, meanwhile we were deciding where to head to too and ended up going to Changi Airport instead and met up with Lance there. Then we had our first surprise of twenty-ten, a car accident. Nobody's hurt/injuired so it's fine though, it's just that the opposing side's attitude was very fucked up whom deserves a punch in the face, well at least we don't need our parents to settle everything.

Afterso everything's settled, we went around T3 for food, pictures, slacked before we left the place at around 4am went over to YP's place for card games again. Lol. Another wrong turn on the way back and another big round, and bigger round for Soohou. Over at YP's place, everybody's restless by then, somehow we played till sunrise and Lance was "turned-on" by YP's FB profile. LOL. Left at around 8am, breakfast-ed at the some coffeeshop nearby, dropped all of em back and finally back home. And so my New Year was the same as my Christmas day, spent sleeping throughout. Lol.








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Crashing TP/ Lunch at Ikea



Like the BEST picture of 2009? LOL
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Christmas dinner with Sec 2 Clique







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Yet another year had past, 365 days just passes so quickly. In summary for the past few days,

• Had an impromptu Christmas dinner with Sec 2 clique @ECP, followed by Mt Faber for gift exchange and to ZY's place to hangout on Monday (grawesome time spent together),
• Watched Sherlock Holmes (awesome movie!), I got my new/old phone and had a lepak session with Sam and Serene on Tuesday (thanks sis for your help!), 
• Crashed the girls' lecture @TP yesterday, followed by Ikea for lunch and to YP's place to hangout on Wed.

And well I'd still haven't gotten all the pictures yet and anyways here to recap for 2009. I...

• Went to Vietnam and Macau for my first time
• Went overseas without parents on a plane for my first time
• Went Bangkok independently with friends
• Acquired my Driving and Riding license
• Had my first S_ _ _ _.
• Got an iPhone
• Got an iPod nano
• Got a puppy
• Got a SLR cam
• Got a Nintendo Wii
• Pick up a new music genre, Kpop
• Went for 42km marathon
• Celebrated Christmas in a bowling alley for the first time
• Still thinking for more... LOL

So guess that's about all for my last post of the year, gonna partay tonight! See ya'll next year!


Jian Hui's Birthday Surprise Pictures 1
Jian Hui's Birthday Surprise Pictures 2 (still trying to upload)

As usual, my clique will have a gathering dinner for Christmas. So for this year was settled on the eve. I didn't manage to get any gifts until yesterday wanted to meet up with Sam to get some gifts from town before the dinner, which then Soohou, Jolene and Weishan joined in because the movie was fullhouse for the whole day. Along the way saw Serene, so gave her a ride to town too. Went around Taka looking for gifts and finally got our gifts.

Left Taka and i swear i will not go down to town on peak periods ever! We only took about 1.5 hours and the parking costed me $6+?! What the fuck seriously! I heart literately skipped a beat when i saw the price appeared. Went over to Lance place and we were the earliest! Then waited for the rest to arrive, played Pictionary man and i was busy taking pictures too and my heart skipped a beat again when my SLR cam dropped. Totally heartbroken. Anyhow finally for dinner! Pow Sing Chicken rice, it's been ages i'd last ate chicken rice from Pow Sing. Lol. After dinner was gift exchange once again! It was totally fun and interesting for this year's gift exchange. I've got my gift from Serene! Thanks sis, loved the keychain and the cute pic! Hahaha!

Finished up the gifts exchange after unwrapping and left for bowling, totally another highlight of the night! Went over to Tampines Safra for bowling and it was totally fun with the competitions and the cheers we had. Haha! Finally its all to counting down. All of us gathered and counted down for Christmas! It was hella exciting virgin experience counting down in the bowling centre though. Totally grawesome! It's not the matter of venue but rather the matter of companionship. Lol. Missed luck in the 1st round lucky draw, i had a feeling i would won the big prizes though, which is the 2nd round lucky draw going to happen at 2am but we left early.

Dropped Yanling and Cindy back home, then Soohou, Sam and Chiulee back home to get some stuff first before heading back to Lance's place again. Was about 2-3am by the time we arrived, and Sam brought along the Bang card game and Soohou brought this "hei-bai che" biscuit. They're totally the sex! I'm totally addicted to the game and the biscuits! Woot! I wanna get one set of the card game too! Lol. Played all night long till the next morning, all of us were totally drained by then. Drove Jolene back home while racing on the way back with Soohou and Weishan was in the backseat begging to leave his car. LOL!

Back home and coma again. In summary, i enjoyed my Christmas this year much! Loved the night with the clique! Grawesome time spent together! Every year just gets better. Lol. Lastly, thanks Lance for the treat once again! And btw, my sis' boyfriend just gave me a $100 red packet as Christmas present, how weird....

Heylow! Finally get the chance back for more blogage. Bangkok trip was grawesome, my second time travelling overseas on an airplane without parents around but just friends. Just gonna be a wordy post because photos are not with me yet. Lol.

Once again, an early morning flight. So met up with the three girls, Weishan, Jolene and Yaping at the airport. We took our time to check-in, have breakfast and finally strolled in to our gate and it was then we realised that our flight was already Last Calling! Lol then we ran all the way on board. Took about 1.5 hours flying over there and finally touched down safely. The anticipation towards Chatuchak market lies within and so we went to check-in to our hotel, the tallest building in Bangkok and the room was huge! Left our luggage and left for the market.

Cabbed down and it was my first time to Chatuchak market, so we took the whole day shopping there and trust me, it was way big and really exhausting. Lol. Back at the hotel, intended to leave for dinner then followed by night market but waited for Jasmine and family to arrive at the hotel first. Had a buffet dinner in the hotel (thanks Jas' mum for the treat) and we were told after that when the taxi driver told us that the night market wasn't open for the night, so we called it a day then.

Second day started off rough, intended to go MBK as early as possible not to waste anytime but we were tricked by this Tuktuk driver which brought us around to god-knows-where in order to claim for his free gasoline, according to what he says. I was so pissed by the second destination that he brought us to that i asked him to drive us to MBK right away or i'm not gonna pay him any money. At first we still thought that he was a nice guy and such but humans are really hard to trust though. Finally arrived at MBK and yet he still asked for 50bhat per person! I was so raged and i just pushed the 80bhat in my hand to him and we walked away. Ridiculous.

And yet another day spent in MBK shopping for the whole day, finally managed to finish shopping the whole mall. Had pig's limb rice for lunch, best ever as always and Mac for dinner. Pork burger and the fries are really tasty there! Back hotel to drop stuff and off to Patpong night market. The girls were MTO-ed by the people by the roadside asking to watch those sexual shows and such and i was disappointed because the night market became so quiet, so empty now as compared to my last visit. Expected to spend at least the whole night there but in the end we took around 1hr and we'd finished for the night, back to hotel and called it a day.

Third day morning was alright, had Mac for breakfast and the Sausage McMuffin there is nice! Walked over to the Platinum shopping mall and yet another day spent in the mall. The malls there are so big that you at least need one day to finish shopping the whole mall. Shopping with the girls was quite an experience, really trained my patience while shopping with girls. Lol. Berms there were cheap! and Bought at least 5 pairs. Bumped into Jas and family there for lunch and continued shopping on. The mall closed early, so we had to leave there and i brought the girls over to the town area for a walk.

Was actually quite a brief one because we only managed to have dinner in Siam Paragon, and then went over to pray before leaving for Suan Lam Night Bazaar. The girls were hyper for the night and idk why, kept using those cheena, angmo, hokkien accents. Lol. And yeap, i managed to finish up my list of itenaries that i'd planned along the way to bring the girls to and yes i'm proud of it. Haha.

We had some spare time in the last morning, so went over to some nearby early market for a brief shopping and along the way back gout ourselves Swensens ice-cream which was damn cheap! Lol, loved the nutty ice-cream i had, Macademia and Almond. Packed up and checked out of the hotel then left for the airport. We were rather late as what i'd expected and we took our own sweet time walking around in the airport again until realising that we were way late for the flight! I thought outside food was allow on the plane, so we got ourselves BK meals first before getting on board. 

My king-sized pepsi spilled all over in Jo's hand carry along the way and as we walked, the airline staff ran to us and shouted at us, asking us to run for the plane as the plane was delayed because of us and our luggages were on standby already! We ran like some mad dogs and the way there seemed never-ending! The airport design was way too wrong, it's so god damn far! The staff shouted profusely, asking us to keep running which we had already did our best, f-up attitude. Finally got on board, exhausted like shit. It was my first time that i'd almost missed my flight, frightening experience. Settled down and took off. 

Peacefully arrived back in Singapore and it feels great to be home... Spent sometimes shopping in the DFS before leaving. Soohou and co were there to pick us up! Congratulations Soohou on your passing! xD Thanks to Jo's mum for the ride back home, dropped my luggage and met up with Hadi off for the class BBQ. I was only home for like 5mins and i'm out to party again, tiring. Tiong Bahru was so damn far! By then, i was totally drained, wanted to drink but decided to give it a miss as i was way too tired. BBQ seafood for the night was great! Thanks for those whom helped to cook and Emily and Brother for the help! 

Celebrated Hadi's birthday too, and night ended well with Josh's foolish acts. Grawesome time spent with the class. Lol. Cabbed back home and my day finally ended. Totally suffered from insufficient sleep and so dropped dead for the night.